15:42.HexGhost: i give up 15:43.sektie: give up? 15:43.sektie: on me? :( 15:43.sektie: don't. 15:43.sektie: *sniffle* 15:43.HexGhost: i have no choice 15:44.HexGhost: you're not my type :) 15:44.HexGhost: well 15:44.HexGhost: more like, i'm not your type 15:44.sektie: this relationship is over before it even began. 15:44.sektie: how sad.
December 2003 Archives
Drove home from work, stayed there a few hours. Can't afford to miss another day at work due to being sick. I'm hoping this weekend (my weekend starts after tonight) I'll have enough wind-down time to finally get over this. I blacked out in my car going home, just for a few seconds, but it was enough to scare the bejeezus out of me. After I finally got there, everytime I tried to open my eyes the room started spinning. Chad called the hospital to see what the wait time was like if I went to ER, and they said both of their waiting rooms were completely full. Fuck that. I hate hospitals, anyways. I'd rather just keel over at work. Finally felt ok enough to get in my car and attempt the drive back to work. I'm here now, and the room is still spinning a little every time I blink. I hope it stays slow tonight.
wi0: <Intersil Prism 2.5> mem 0xf4000000-0xf4000fff irq 10 at device 15.0 on pci0
wi0: timeout in wi_cmd 0x0000; event status 0x0000
wi0: wi_cmd: busy bit won't clear.
wi0: wi_cmd: busy bit won't clear.
device_probe_and_attach: wi0 attach returned 6bloody hell. Nothing ever just works. That's the DWL-520 I mentioned before. cvsup'ing to newest sources now. I'm hoping I can keep the box from overheating while I make world. Bah humbug.
.: aricon has changed the topic on channel #atlrave to happy b-day to aricon .: aricon has changed the topic on channel #atlrave to happy b-day to aricon he is 24 .: aricon has changed the topic on channel #atlrave to happy b-day to aricon he is 24and most likely drunl .: aricon has changed the topic on channel #atlrave to happy b-day to aricon he is 24and most likely drunk .: aricon has changed the topic on channel #atlrave to happy b-day to aricon he is 24 and most likely drunk 02:39.aricon: :P
I am tired of dealing with everyone not understanding that I have to sleep. I am not a superhuman. I am sick. To get better, I need to sleep. Please let me sleep. 90 minutes is not an acceptable length of uninterrupted sleeping time. I had a breakdown today due to lack of sleep. I am exhausted. The next person that wakes me up is going to regret it, regardless of why they wake me up. They will die. Die, die, die. Thanks in advance.
Things I have learned in the past 24 hours:
- Relatives are best in short doses if you are used to them living 3000+ miles away. Love them, but hard to live with them.
- Victorias Secret Body Shaper (weird strapless supertight black dress looking thingie) sounds good in theory, but keeping breasts squeezed in for that long makes for a very uncomfortable time when finally taking it off. Ow. Still recovering.
- Talking to my car does in fact make it get better gas mileage.
- Cats are stupid.
- LJ is a cult.
- Alfred is like way too smart for me to talk to on any type of technical level. Maybe in a year if I get a brain transplant or something.
- Most guys are complete idiots that think a little bit of flattery will get me to fall in love with them. Ummm, right.
- I need sleep, preferably a 12 hour uninterrupted session.
- Theraflu and Adderall do not a cure to the common flu make.
- The world is small, the circle is staggering, I'm pretty certain I know everyone that has ever been on the internet somehow, probably through sherrod or david.
- Cough syrup is never a good excuse to mac.
- The waffle house on northside drive (the northside drive exit nearest to the downtown connector) is way cool. It doesn't have rednecks working there - it has overly cheerful drag queens. No joke. Go there late one night, see for yourself.
- Cheap tights + boots with side zipper = bad.
10:44.PopeMike: sektie where you been ime been up all night holy moses beer and makefiles 10:44.PopeMike: oh out of it 10:44.sektie: popemike: 42 jesus red bookcase cat marker plate window broken? 10:45.PopeMike: sektie: 42.75 10:45.sektie: my apologies. 10:45.nez: PopeMike, that explains a lot
I don't think I'm going to be able to drive myself home in the morning if I don't start feeling better soon. So far:
- I have lost all taste. I went upstairs just now to get a Mt dew, and I took a big drink of it because I was sooo thirsty, and it had no flavour whatsoever. I got another can, hoping maybe the one I drank from was a dud - no such luck. It tastes like diet. :(
- I have been coughing so violently I had to take out my tongue barbell because the piercing was starting to rip. Ow. Not only does my throat feel like sandpaper, but my tongue is hella sore too.
- I am wearing a long sleeve shirt, a velour hoodie, and a really heavy jacket that belongs to Chad. Despite all of this, I continue to be freezing cold. I think my forehead feels hot, but I really can't tell because my hands are like ice. I cannot get warm.
- Every time I stand up, I have to fight to keep from being dizzy. My legs feel crazy weak, and I can barely walk. I've barely kept from passing out a couple of times tonight.
- My neck feels like it's wearing an iron choker. The muscles are hard as rocks, and it's so sore it hurts to turn it. Parts of it feel somewhat swollen inside, and it's somewhat numb in areas.
- All of my joints hurt. It kills me to bend my knees and then straighten them out.
Worst xmas ever. I want to go home, but I'm the only UNIX person working the holiday night shift. No way in hell I'm leaving and then having everyone elses hate if they get called because something goes down. Gah. I want to curl up and die.
So far today, I have ripped my tongue piercing from coughing too violently, got a big bump on my head from my legs going out from under me while i was at work and hitting my head, and nearly passed out while I was driving to work.
Today is a sucky day.
Merry freaking xmas.
I feel like someone threw me out in the middle of the road and ran me over with a semi a few times. I can still function OK, it's just not pleasant. My neck is also partially numb and it feels like something is swollen. Owie. :(
We did the Christmas thing last night since no one was going to be available on Christmas day. Nathan got the entire stock of the local Toys 'R Us. He got so many presents, by the end we had to open them for him because he was tired of it. hehe. I got some clothes from my mom - a really cute industrial looking black dress and a matching jacket, sheer blue&green top over a blueish tank top and a long black skirt. Dad got me an electric screwdriver!!! It is so pimp. It has a light on the end of it, and a really nice case. I got other various small things (money, gift certificates, etc). I think I'll head over to best buy tomorrow to pick up an IDE controller card so I can get more of those HD's functioning in eyecandy. Chad got a 160GB HD and a belkin KVM from his mom. I am so jealous. :P
I work tomorrow night, and I'm pretty happy about that. I need out of this house. I need some quiet time away from all these people, and I anticipate work will be quiet for xmas eve and xmas day. I like seeing my mom & steve, but I am ready to have the house back to myself. I am uber stressed. :(
QOTD: (said by some guy in a loud bar) "I cuddle like a motherfucker!"
It never fails to amuse me how many hits freebsdgirl gets within the first 30 minutes of posting to the freebsd.org mailing lists using my normal sig.
Oddly enough, I'm not that excited about it. It's winding down so I'm kind of bored right now, but tonight has been a pretty good night. Kerbawy and I got to fix stuff tonight. Spending an hour poking around on servers trying to be imaginative and googling to research stuff made my night. Well, that and the adderall. After I got off the phone I just had to go outside for a smoke break to calm down. Fixing problems makes me hyper and happy. While I was out smoking, I called David to talk to him about the fd/php problem on freebsdgirl, and he's the only person thus far that has been able to come up with a plausible explanation. binary corruption via mmap!
I talked to Kerbawy about NYE, and I think he might be going to The Chamber with me. I'm trying to get David and a few others to go along as well, but so far everyone is going to Canada, or hanging out with family, or working, or partying elsewhere or something. There's supposed to be a huge event at the Chamber NYE, and I can't wait! Hm. I wonder if Kerbawy knows what kind of place it is? Well, what it used to be. It was rather tame when I went there. From the posters I've seen, NYE promises to be a lot different. I hope he doesn't get scared and run home.
You'll probably notice I removed one of the albums from the pics page. No worries, I'll replace it with one of Christmas pics soon. Mostly all the pics we've taken are of Nathan. I've looked entirely too washed out and exhausted to even think about getting in on any of them. I used to walk 3/4 mile to the bus stop in 18" of snow with a light jacket every morning at 6:00 AM when I lived in IL. When did I become such a cold weather wuss? Living in GA for so many years has thinned my blood.
I finished up almost all of the Christmas shopping yesterday. Actually, I hadn't even really started on it until yesterday, so there was a *lot* of bags. I'm glad my car is a hatchback. I'm going to be so broke after this is all over with, and I still have to put down the deposit so I can move into my new apartment soon. I really want to fly Michelle down here, but I'm not going to do so until I have my apartment reasonably put together. She said the 2nd week of January is good for her. Hah! At this rate I'll be lucky if I even have the papers signed for the new place by then.
Michelle is coming to GA, I'm going to Vegas again relatively soon, Andy and I are going on a roadtrip to who knows where, Ibiza in the summer, Japan next winter, and I still have to drive to NC to see grandma & grandpa for xmas. I AM TIRED OF TRAVELING. At least I have delta skymiles now. I'm really glad I work such an odd schedule. I don't have to take vacation time for my trips, since I rarely stay gone more than 3 or 4 days.
If I wasn't a computer geek, I think I would have been an astrophysicist. If you were taken out of the computer field, what would you do? Do you think it would have changed the way you live your life all that much? Yes. I'm looking for answers. Comment. I'm curious.
My brother, Chris, is going through a rough time. He's 16, so i suppose that's normal, but not to this extent. I worry. I think dad is about to kick him out. He doesn't realize that he doesn't have the resources I had. I am pretty damn lucky to be alive, and it's amazing that I'm in the position I'm in. I think he assumes he can prance through life with the same grace and luck that he thinks I've had. Yeah. I'd like to see him survive on the streets for a night or two. He has so much more than most kids have at that age. Even I didn't have the kind of stuff he has. The parents are no longer in court all the time, he's got a nice motorcycle AND a car. I would have loved to have just one of those. He compares his life to all of the rich kids in Fayetteville, and he thinks that he's lacking. Dad doesn't make much money, but Chris either doesn't want to see it or just doesn't care.
I can only hope I don't run into those types of problems with Nathan. I'm not sure what I'd do. Parents really do have it rough. So far we've been lucky. Nathan is about as close to the perfect kid you can get, and I never liked kids until we had him. He cleans, runs cat5, loves to give kisses & hugs, and is very sensitive to others feelings. It's amazing considering he's only 2. I'm not sure what other 2 year olds are like, but it doesn't seem normal. He doesn't ever behave badly except for when he's tired and a little cranky, but all kids are like that. I love my angel. :)
I keep getting distracted from writing by thinking about my latest code project. I wonder if we could use it here at work? Once it's finished, I'll show it to a few people. That's going to be quite a ways from now though. I have a lot to learn before I'm satisfied with it. Like Alfred was saying, it needs to be very modular. I'm going to be using pthreads to handle the threading, I think. There's someone here at work that wrote a very nice hella fast application that does lots of network throughput, but I've never really talked to him before, so I'd feel weird asking for his input. Maybe once I am more comfortable with knowing what I'm talking about.
Oh no. I just remembered the huge pile of toys sitting at home waiting for me to wrap them. Nathan's just going to rip the paper off of them anyways, but it looks so pretty and serene for the first 5 minutes. I'll take before and after pictures. This is going to be our last Christmas together as a family. I hope it goes alright. We're actually going to be celebrating it the afternoon of the 24th, since I have to work both christmas eve and christmas night. Mom is leaving christmas evening for her plane flight, and dad has stuff going on christmas day, so this seems easiest for everyone anyways.
Adrian called tonight, and we had one of our marathon phone conversations. Probably would have talked for longer if stuff at work hadn't come up. Adrian helped me out tonight in a big way. Mad props. Yes, I'm still saving your damn FreeBSD 10 yr anniversary CD for you. I have 2 left. One I'm keeping, the other one has a sticky note that says "FOR ADRIAN". There needn't be any more threats of bodily harm. Besides, I'd totally kick his butt anyways. I am feeling so much better now, too. He hasn't got a chance.
I'm thinking of making some of my legendary chocolate chip cookies and bringing them in to work on Christmas. It seems a shame to spend xmas eve at work with no celebration of any sort. I may not like the holidays, but I certainly don't believe in ignoring them. I don't think any of the PE's are going to be here, so it'll just be us PA's. Eh, well, people can take them home with them, I suppose.
It still really weirds me out knowing that so many people from work are reading this now. Commenting too. Um, hi. <3 Not only does my mom read my blog, but coworkers do, too. I feel popular.
I do feel the need to point out that when you post a comment, it saves the comment to the db as well as your IP address. I did this originally because it seemed like it was a good idea at the time, and then there were some abuse issues later so it came in handy. Just fair warning, should anyone decide to be silly.
but going to work anyways. sigh.
My head hurts like I've been pounding it against a brick wall. Personally, I'd rather be my head than the brick wall. It's been said I have a fairly hard head.
Today I closed my eyes to blink, and when I opened them again, it looked like everything was straight out of a B movie. It all looked too real, too gritty. Sometimes I wish life could be airbrushed, or that we could have the perfect lighting to make everything look fabulous and shiny.
I hate the holidays. My family flew in to see me, and I still feel lonely. What I wouldn't give for some alcohol, cuddles, or just some cute guy in latex. Sigh. Can someone put a big red bow on that and send it to me? Next day air? I'd even be willing to fork over the money for shipping.
What am I supposed to do now that the line is blurred? What I want, what I think I want, what I used to want... how does it all fit in now? It would be easier to give up and reestablish all of it, but that's not my style. I think I'd end up running into the same problems, regardless.
I'm feeling let down because of that job in Cali still, but maybe staying here would be for the best. I like Interland as a company. I think my boss and most of my coworkers are pretty cool. I just wish I could do something other than sit here. I'm better than this. I'm bored out of my bloody mind. How can I throw myself into my work if there's no work to be thrown into? I am not a mindless drone.
On another note, I'm going to kill Kerbawy. He left ktrace running on freebsdgirl, and it filled up /tmp. Grrrr.
Think happy thoughts. Sparkle and shine. It'll all go back to normal soon.
went to best buy. bought princess bride.
<jeffk>BESTEST DVD EVAR</jeffk>
also got dlink dwl-520 - NOT THE PLUS VERSION!@#@!#@!
hells yeah. they have never carried that card at this best buy. prism 2, baby.
Laying here trying to get motivated. My mother is going to be here in less than 48 hours, and I still have quite a bit to do.
Why can't the rest of the world be awake at 5 AM? I would kill for the Demolition Man DVD right now.
Chad's mom sent me a $25 gift certificate to Best Buy. Not entirely sure what to make of that. What's the protocol for gift giving between an ex-mother-in-law and myself? hmm. I mean, I like buying people stuff and I'm totally going to get her something, but I wasn't sure if it was proper.
Itinerary:
Weds - clean, maybe buy Demolition Man DVD
Weds night - set up amazon.com wishlist under new account that points to my new debit card, help switch bedroom furniture around, sleep
Thurs - dye hair, do laundry, clean
Thurs night - mother arrives. rejoice, go to work.
Friday morning - get home. sleep. I'm going to be exhausted, because I don't see myself getting any sleep before I go to work.
Friday evening - wake up, play with Nathan, be social with mom and Steve, go to work
Saturday morning - get home from work, do bank things with paycheck, take mom shopping at lennox
Saturday evening - get home from shopping, sleep for about 45 minutes, head to work
Sunday morning - collapse once I get home from work. sleep for at LEAST 6 hours.
Sunday evening through Weds morning - be social, go grocery shopping, finish up xmas shopping, help decorate tree, etc.
Weds afternoon - do xmas dinner (a day early), open presents with family, take lots of pictures
Weds evening - go to work
Thurs morning - get home from work, sleep a few hours
Thurs afternoon - mom & steve go back to seattle
mmm, nice music. Probably not the best music to be listening to when I'm picking out what to wear when I go meet up with my dad. He's never seen me all industrailized and whatnot. Yeah, I'm totally sticking to the Abercrombie side of the closet today.
Must...not...reach...for...skirts...and...eyeliner...
I've been trying to plan out my new apartment. Right now I'm turning dark old plain ugly furniture into bright unique ugly furniture. It'll make do until I can buy new furniture. I'm going to start taking a notepad around with me and jotting down ideas as I have them.
When I was at target, swear to god, I totally spent 10 minutes in front of the massaging showerheads contemplating which ones to get. I'm glad I have two bathrooms, because showerheads have just gotten too cool. They have a pink one. I love pink! Unfortunately it doesn't go with my ideas of what I want both bathrooms to look like. I think I'm going to get one of those neat ones that feels like rain...the kind that extends up and out to the middle of the shower with a huge disc-shaped showerhead? Yeah, that'll go in the master bedroom's bathroom, and I'll get one of those massaging ones that are detachable for the guest bathroom. Guests better not be getting freaky in that bathroom.
I think I'm going to do the guest bathroom up in a cottage white type look. White lace shower curtains, white furniture, white towels and accessories. I love white lace. It reminds me of summer on the farm back in IL. Not that I have that many good memories of the farm, but the summers there were cool. I miss it, but I would never want to live it again.
After all, I need my broadband.
.: part(DeadCatz) 05:47.sektie: omg 05:47.sektie: so that reminded me 05:47.frame: ... 05:47.sektie: today my cat was being a complete whore 05:48.sektie: like i was laying on the floor watching tv, and he kept coming over trying to get me to pet him. shoving his entire freaking body in my face. 05:48.sektie: and i started to wonder what the cat would be like if it was on irc 05:48.sektie: and it hit me 05:48.sektie: deadcatz 05:48.sektie: amazing how well the nick fits. 05:48.sektie: isn't that great?
I am such a sucky scripter.
[smut:~]
[root]$ grep epic lsof.out | wc -l
6163Ok kids, this is why we remember to properly close out our log files. Which I thought I was doing...apparently it isn't working properly. As a result, any time someone said anything in any channel, it would open the file, write to it, and not close it.
How rare. (weebl props)
hahahaha
Dec 15 17:22:13 smut kernel: pid 5096 (httpd), uid 80: exited on signal 11
Dec 15 17:22:13 smut kernel: pid 5097 (httpd), uid 80: exited on signal 11omg, I totally fucked the freebsdgirl.com server up the butt. time to reboot.
Ok, apache still isn't working. A recompile didn't work. Asking john for help.
sektie: i haven't had anyone working on my box since i was like sektie: 16 sektie: and had slackware john: Go me, or something sektie; PLZ BE FIXING MY PUTER KTNX
I can't believe I brought down my entire server with an irc script. I'd probably be able to fix it myself, but Nathan is going to be home any minute now. Hmm.
I am the best coder ever.
End story, PHP was broken and causing apache to freak.
This is somewhat belated, but everyone wave at br1an as he runs off to join the military. I think he was supposed to start yesterday. I hope he still finds time to IRC, or I might just have to take over #openbsd^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^Hmiss him VERY MUCH.
I think I've fallen in love with Lord Byron. He seems so incredibly human, it's almost like you could sense what was going on in his mind when reading his work. I don't often feel like I can connect with early 19th century authors like that. I find it amusing that he was born in England, but has such an Americanized sentiment in one of his more famous quotes:
They say that knowledge is power. I used to think so, but now I know they mean money.
Normally, in the interest of feminism, I never use this as an excuse for anything. Regardless...
I am so totally PMS'ing.
Don't fuck with me today.
I know this is a bit early to be getting started on these, but I wanted to have a while to think about each resolution as I make them. Normally I don't believe in resolutions based upon the coming of the new year, but this January 1st is a huge turning point in my life. I'm going to comment on this post from time to time as I think up more things I'd like to change before January 1st, and December 31st (or thereabouts, depending on how my free time falls) I'll make a new post with the final version. I don't expect to make huge changes right off the bat. I know change is a gradual process, and trying to do all of it immediately is going to make me burn out and fail. I am going to make an honest go of it though, so let's see how this goes.
- Don't eat any more fast food. I already rarely eat fast food because it upsets my stomache, but I need to stop eating it at all. Fast food is bad for me, and if I want a healthy body, I've got to stop eating it completely.
- Along the same lines, start eating carrots. I hate carrots. I think they are gross. I'm going to start eating them every day until I like them because they are good for me. I'm guessing they are an aquired taste, like coffee. I hate coffee too.
- Read more nonfiction. I read quite a bit of fiction, and I could dedicated some of that time to technical literature, like stuff on astrophysics or programming. Fiction will not better me except when it comes to my imagination. Imagination will only get a person so far.
- Spend less time on my computer. I spend entirely too much time on IRC/AIM. I have a life. I should interface with it more often.
- Stop smoking. Yes, cloves smell nice. They give me something to do. However, the sugar from a charms blowpop will do the same thing and also appease my oral fixation. No more Djarum's.
- Start going to the gym at least twice a week. I'm paying for one of the ubercoolspecial memberships at Ballys, I should use it.
- See the doctor about my back again. I need to get it fixed. I just really hate doctors. Medication is not a 'fix', and I should accept this and start looking for some more help.
- Start doing yoga every morning. I do it somewhat now, but not enough. Be the gumby.
- Start attending a martial arts class. Aikido? Not judo. I dislike judo. This will have to happen after I get my back fixed.
- Learn how to deal with skeezy irish guys at bars hitting on me. Looking around frantically for anyone I know and doing the whole 'nod and smile' routine is not acceptable. Sometimes it is OK to be a bitch. I need to learn how to apply that in real life.
- Stop trying to justify my existance by working to gain the acceptance of other people. I am my own fucking snowflake. This goes right along with not being such an attention whore. I look for attention because I don't like myself enough. I'm cool, I'm special, I'm pretty, I'm smart. I need to actually believe these things when I say them instead of just saying them to piss other people off.
- Work harder. I'm never going to amount to anything in my career unless I start pushing myself more. Stop being so fucking lazy. Talk to my boss about getting more projects or something. Put my resume up on monster or computerjobs or something. Make something of myself instead of idling.
- Learn how to love myself before I get involved with anyone. If I don't love myself, I'm not going to respect myself, so how can I expect anyone else to respect me? It sounds like bullshit, but it's true.
- Learn how to control myself when I go shopping. Depresssion/Anxiety/Loneliness/Self-esteem issues are not valid reasons for mini shopping sprees. Buying myself another pair of boots is not going to make me feel better about myself except for about 5 minutes, until I realize I don't have money to buy food or rent or gas for my car or something. This one is especially important, because I'm about to be out all on my own, and I won't have Chad to fall back on anymore.
OK, well, I didn't get the job. Life goes on.
I am at work right now, after missing two days. I still feel hella sick. Probably not going to be here much longer. I've been chugging Pepto Bismol like there's no tomorrow, and my throat feels like sandpaper. Hm.
I'm thinking about doing something I shouldn't, but I'm a stupid girl, and that's what stupid girls do. Ugh. Where are people when I need them?
It's Friday.
Oh my god.
Freak out and die until phone rings time.
I'm sick. Not just a little sick, but really sick. As I discovered once I finally did move around, the earth is spinning a little too quickly for me today. I made it out of bed just to call off of work, and then cuddling on the couch with Nathan watching The Simpsons, since he seems to be feeling a bit sick as well. He's got a slight fever and a horrible cough. I can hear him coughing in his sleep upstairs right now. :(
So tonight, I accomplish nothing. I'm going to stay in bed, finish reading the new Stephen King novel, "Wolves of the Calla". It's the 5th book in the Dark Tower series, and I've been waiting for it for years. When I get tired of reading, I'll put in a new DVD (Boondock Saints is in right now, looping for background noise) and start knitting. I hate being sick.
Internal music switch. Evenessance - Going Under to BT - Superfabulous.
I'm getting kind of tired of sleeping on the floor. I think it's slowly killing my back dead. Hmm.
BT's Emotional Technology is worth buying just for tracks 3 & 4. Can't say that I like any of the other tracks that much, but those two tracks definitely make it worth it.
Nearly 7 PM. The guys didn't get in until 8:45AM or so, so I was at work late. Normally I don't care if I'm there late or not, but last night was a sucky night for me. My hydrocodone was at home, so I was like "ow" all night long. Tony didn't even bother calling in to say he'd be late. Grrrr. How very rude.
Adrian called and woke me up. I think him and I get along great so long as we aren't working together on the same shift. :) He wants lesbians or something. I dunno. I only know one hardcore lesbian, and she lives in Athens and I haven't talked to her since that one party. I tried to tell him that most girls really are bi. Being straight is the natural response to the 'good girl' image our mothers force on us (read Nancy Friday). Anyways, that's a whole nother discussion, and I gotta get dressed.
Don't wanna move. :(
Work has actually been somewhat eventful tonight. Eventful compared to the norm, anyways.
Scott is here late doing kernel upgrades. Nice to see the truelinux PE taking action and fixing things. I think Scott will be really good for the job. He doesn't seem to be a slacker, and from what I've seen he knows what he's doing. It'll be interesting to see what changes he'll bring.
I got over 12 hours of sleep before I came to work, and it felt amazing. I haven't gotten that much sleep in ages. I stopped by Best Buy (had to get in my cardio for the day), and they had a DVD player for $35. wtf? Most of my anime dvds are more expensive than that player. I found a Toshiba I kind of like. Normally I'm hardcore Samsung, but since my TV is Toshiba and silver, I'd like to get a DVD player to match it.
Still no news from the company I interviewed from. They said later this week. Urgh. I am like freaking out. It doesn't help that everyone is like "Do you have the job?" omg. I am nearly bouncing up and down in my chair I am so anxious to find out. sigh. I wish I was at home right now. I have so much to accomplish, and so little time - especially if this job thing really does go through. Cross your fingers.
Last login: Thu Dec 11 00:09:54 2003 from porn.corp.interland.net
bash-2.05$In the past few weeks, I've spent more time in the air trying to sleep than I have on the ground sleeping.
hm.
I'm getting suprisingly comfortable transitioning between EST and PST.
The interview today went pretty well, I think. I was exhausted from lack of sleep, but I managed to not mess anything up (I think). It took me a lot longer to set up that FreeBSD box than it should have, but my brain was just cludging along.
After meeting the guys that work there and seeing the facilities, I want to work there more than ever. It's just so perfect. They are a hosting company, which is a business that I know pretty well, and sure, they have a few issues. Who doesn't? But they are small enough and young enough to where fixing problems isn't a huge ordeal. People there actually seem to use logic, which is totally different from what I'm used to. It'd be nice not having to play the politics game 24/7. They did like to stress that it's not your standard 9-5 job. There's a lot of times I'll be called in or I'll have to work late, and like I kept telling them, I really don't mind. I want a job that keeps me busy. I go out sometimes, sure, but for the most part I usually chill at home. Code at home, or fix things at work - it really makes little difference to me. I just want to be kept busy. I hate being idle.
After dinner, they dropped me off at my hotel room because I was freaking exhausted. I got like 4 hours of sleep or so, then Alfred called and woke me up. Thanks. I'm really suprised I slept that long. Lately I've only been sleeping in 2 hour stretches. Apparently that won't change much if I get this job. No worries. I'm still young, so I'm suprisingly resiliant to lack of sleep. It's just when I go 3-4 days with maybe 5 hours of sleep total that I start going braindead.
I fly back home later today. 1 PMish? Not sure what they are going to have me doing today. They seemed like they had a bit going on last night. Maybe I can help fix stuff? On the plane trip home, I'm going to be doing some more coding. I really wish delta had outlets to plug my laptop into. That would be pimp.
After coding about 8 hours, I just realized I'd been wearing my headphones the entire time and no music had been playing.
Hm.
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Very few people visit my blog from EA IP space. Interesting. Futile? Confusing...
I fly to San Jose on Monday for a job interview. Actually, I should say The job interview. I like Interland. The people I work with are great, and the company is finally starting to pick itself back up, but I'm bored out of my freaking mind. The company I'm going to be interviewing with sounds like a dream come true for me. I'm pretty sure I did good on the phone interview, being as how they are flying me out there for a couple of days. The guy I talked to was pretty cool, and definitely knowledgable. They did read my blog though, and that makes me very, very nervous. I want this so bad I can taste it. Everything about it is just perfect. I'm crossing my fingers that I don't get so nervous and stressed that I totally blow it by doing something stupid, like vomiting on the CEO or something. I could totally see myself doing that. Ew.
I've managed to finish painting a bunch of dresser drawers and one of the night stands. Ralph Lauren "Durango Blue". It'll look great if I get any furniture from Ikea. I'm going to be going for a modern-artsy-chunky-but-functional type of look. Colors. I'm usually not too fond of colors. This should be interesting. Providing I manage to get some time this weekend, I'm planning on going shopping for a new mattress set. Maybe one of those sleep number thingies. I don't mind laying down some money (even considering the circumstances) if it's for a nice mattress set. Totally worth it.
I think I overdid it working out yesterday. Maybe a little. My abs, biceps, upper & lower legs, and back hurts. It's not really a bad hurt, even my back. My muscles are just reminding me that they are there and I should not abuse them. Heh. Suckers. Just wait until this weekend. You're going to feel the burn. bwahahaha...ow...hurts to laugh. :(
I am getting some muscle tone going on in my legs from those boots though. Rawr. Not only do I get to look good, but I get to build muscle tone while doing so. Definitely beats sweating it out looking all gross in the gym. When I move into a new apartment (which I'm doing regardless of if I get this job in Cali or not), I am going to make sure it has an extra bedroom for computer and gym equipment. My arms are getting better too. When I punch, the air whistles. hehe. neat. Now I just need to have a stern talking-to with my stomache.
I'm not normally this crazy. I'm just really tired. I don't think I'm going to pass out for a while though. There's too much to accomplish. No time for sleep. I sense an adderall week coming on.
I am tired of typing.
I think my fingers are about to shrivel up and fall off and die.
With the exception of 2 smoke breaks, 1 potty break, and 2 soda breaks, I haven't moved from this keyboard. My administrative interface for the website is 40% done, more or less. The CSS for the site is prettier. I made the text white on hover for people that complain it's not readable enough. I removed the mouseover img things because they were starting to annoy even me. I am tired.
Where did the past 12 hours go?
<scared> your blog is great sektie ;) <HexGhost> scared: but mine looks better <HexGhost> ;) <HexGhost> like <HexGhost> drop the current color scheme? <sektie> i love my current color scheme <sektie> eat butt. <HexGhost> thats because you live at night <HexGhost> and your eyes have adjusted to the darkness <TFox> ! <HexGhost> for those of us daydwellers <HexGhost> blue on black is not easy :0
It's a bright blue though. Man, people always have problems. First it's the font. I agreed, the font sucked, so I changed it. Now it's the color scheme? I love this shade of blue. Is it really that hard for other people to read? I never use a desktop, ever. I'm only on my laptop, and I know things can look very different as far as readability goes on a CRT. Comments?
New site. lots of bugs. Please report them in a thread here.
There's a lot of new functionality I'm going to be adding in, and now that I've got the framework for the new site down, it should be easy from here on out. I know it doesn't really look all that different, but I totally redid the database and the php code running everything. Oh, and it's all CSS to piss off the IE people. Why? Because I can.
Being kind of reflective today. Noticed that people are so busy trying to peek over the edge to see what's there that they hardly ever make any big jumps. Live dangerously, neh?
