November 2003 Archives

I just woke up. Mmm, sleep was nice. Wish I could have slept for longer, but Chad let Nathan wake me up. I really don't mind, because I missed Nathan sooooo much.

I gained 2 pounds when I was in cali. Ugh. Ate entirely too much. That's ok, I'll lose it all in the next few days probably. I'm going to snag something really small to eat, and then I'm heading up to Home Depot to pick up some wood putty, sandpaper, paint, and brushes so I can get started painting that bedroom set. Some minor physical labour should make me feel better, and fixing up that furniture sounds like a fab idea for my vacation since I probably won't have time to do it later.

When I left home a week ago, I left all of my clean clothes up on the bed, and it looks like Chad left the bedroom door open because they are now covered in cat fur. I really really hate cats. Well, correction. I really really hate OUR cats. I really hate every pet we own, except Dory the hamster because he totally rocks. I like other peoples pets, just so long as they don't shed on me. My hair is thick enough to where I have enough problems dealing with my own shedding; the last thing I need is some animal that is helping cover my black velvet dress with even more unbecoming hairs. People like me are why the pocket lint picker upper thingie was created.

I'm feeling all spastical. Time for yoga, food, shower, home depot, painting - in that order.

Finally got back home about 10 minutes ago. What's the first thing I do? Check my mail, my blog, and my IRC messages. I am such an internet addict. I was totally jonesing for internet when we were in Vegas. Since I don't have to work again until the 4th, I'm going to attempt to get some code done. I really need to learn about threading and such, so that is my project for tomorrow (today?).

I totally miss being in cali, but I have to admit it's nice to be home. I don't really want to be here; I don't much like being home anymore. But at least there's a place where I can walk around with messy hair and ugly pants and not have to worry about it. I'm sort of glad I left when I did. As much as I think Alfred totally rocks, I can't really be around someone for a long time like that. I need some kind of space. Even if the person invading my space is really cute and geeky and has really strong arms. hehe. sigh.

I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm totally boring, shy, psycho, or all of the above. I've been on the edge of a nervous breakdown for the past month or two. Despite the fact that the divorce isn't going badly at all, it's still a stressful process on top of everything else that weighs so heavily on my mind. It's really just one of many large issues that I'm constantly thinking about. Half the time I was really quiet and kind of depressed, and the other half I was hyper and/or drunk. I sort of got really pissed at him about something that was stupid, but in my mind it was a big deal because of all the shit I'd been thinking about lately regarding someone else. I feel horrible for taking it out on him. I just hope he doesn't hold all of that against me. I've been trying to smile and be my usual cheerful sektie self, but it's been difficult.

If I get this job and move to cali (note: big IF), I'll get a chance to leave some of this behind. New setting, new people, new job. Not really a new start, but I think it'll help me get through a lot of the issues I've been having lately. I am an emotional train wreck most of the time. I don't consider myself a weak person. I've been strong in ways most people will never have to be, and they should thank their lucky stars for it. But some stuff I have never quite learned how to deal with. I guess it's because I'm young, but it's frustrating. I just have to get through the next few months. Things will get a lot better in just a few more months. Won't they? Please?

??????????????- - - ? [?] (sektie!~sektie@freebsdgirl.com) Internic Commercial [?] ircname .. fap fap fap fap [?] channels .. @#hackphreak #freebsd @#openbsd +#ubixos @#iltonham @#codehozers @#coders +#c [?] server .. mesa.az.us.undernet.org (Makin' Usenet Easy.) [?] away .. is gone.. autoaway after 30 min (log!on.page!off) [?] idle .. 19 seconds idle [?] signon .. Fri Nov 21 17:35:41 2003 ?- -?- - - - -

A Tree Grows In Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
Digital Fortress (Dan Brown)
The Dark Tower V: Wolves of the Calla (Stephen King)
The Vampire Chronicles: Blood Canticle (Anne Rice)
MySQL Pocket Reference (O'Reilly)

david: you know what a sad day it is i admit YOU ARE THE SANEST WOMAN I KNOW sektie: hahahaha sektie: i'm perfectly sane. other people just don't understand my type of sanity david: right david: you are sane david: AND I AM A VIRGIN

cc -fpic -DPIC -O -pipe -mcpu=pentiumpro -DTERMIOS -DANSI_SOURCE -I/usr/src/secure/lib/libcrypto/../../../crypto/openssl -I/usr/src/secure/lib/libcrypto/../../../crypto/openssl/crypto -I/usr/obj/usr/src/secure/lib/libcrypto -DOPENSSL_NO_IDEA -DL_ENDIAN -DNO_IDEA -c /usr/src/crypto/openssl/crypto/sha/sha_dgst.c -o sha_dgst.So In file included from /usr/src/crypto/openssl/crypto/sha/sha_dgst.c:70: /usr/src/crypto/openssl/crypto/sha/sha_locl.h: In function `sha_block_host_order': /usr/src/crypto/openssl/crypto/sha/sha_locl.h:345: unrecognizable insn: (jump_insn 1296 1042 3609 (??? bad code 36864 ) -1 (nil) (nil)) /usr/src/crypto/openssl/crypto/sha/sha_locl.h:345: Internal compiler error in extract_insn, at recog.c:2148 Please submit a full bug report, with preprocessed source if appropriate. See <URL:http://www.gnu.org/software/gcc/bugs.html> for instructions. *** Error code 1

sektie one thing i must admit, u have some really awesome lips out of all the chiqz on IRC sektie has the nicest lips

awww :)

Long night at work. Very little happened, but I still feel drained. I've felt drained all week.

I remembered to sign up for health insurance, which is very important since I won't have any after the divorce. I'm impressed by how low the monthly payment for health insurance is. Very nice, since my budget is going to be kind of strained for a while.

Eric is quitting, and I'm a little sad over that. Worried as well, because that means his position as Truelinux PE is opening up. I hope that whoever gets the position isn't a complete retard and/or asshole. Mike sent out the job posting and said he needed to know who was interested in it ASAP. At first I wasn't going to apply for it. After all, it's Linux. I am a FreeBSDGirl. :) But after a bit of thinking, I shot an email off to him saying I was interested in the position. I'm really tired of working in the NOC. I have nothing to do there, EVER. I am quickly losing my motivation, and as a result I spend 18 hours out of every day programming and studying aimlessly. I have no focus, so I'm not progressing nearly as quickly as I could be. I want a position that is going to challenge me and keep me busy. At least give me something to do other than fix the occassional broken Sun box and reboot servers. Sigh. So anyways, I sent the email off, and shortly afterwords I received a reply asking me if I would be opposed to working a day shift, since he knew I love my night shift. Of course I explained that I would take any shift if I could just get a position that would suit my abilities. Sigh. Not quite in those words, but you get the point. So at least he's considering me. Honestly, I expected him to laugh once he saw I wanted it. This is a big position, and I'm sure there are a lot of people more qualified than myself. Oh well. Had to try. Wish me luck! :)

michelle: my friend is sending me n@kEd pix of this grl she is going tobe w/ soon... hehe! sektie: wow sektie: did you notice the older we get, the more lesbian we get? sektie: i think by the time i'm 30, i won't need guys at all. michelle: NO SHIT

My back has been hurting all weekend. Major suckage. I'm tired and my tizandine don't seem to be working so well anymore, so I'm going to stop taking them for a while. I'm probably building up a tolerance to them, which is really strange. I usually don't build up tolerances that easily. I've been having to take 2 pills, and the dosage says 1/2 to 1 pill. It rips up my stomache something fierce. Poor me.

I'm at work finally, and it's good to be back. I told TFox I'd do some perl for him tonight, and I'm feeling kind of dirty because of that. Perl does not give me happy thoughts. It's a fairly simple script though, just does a few things with DBI. It's been a while since I've written anything in perl (a year? maybe more) so I'm probably going to have to rtfm a little to get my groove back. I wish I could do it in c, but he wants perl. Blah!

I'm feeling kind of bummed today, and I'm not sure why. I managed to get in 5 hours of sleep before I came in to work, and I should be extremely happy over that. I'm sure I'll snap out of it once I get my code on. I think I finally left my burnout phase, and now it's time for 2 or 3 weeks of 18/7 coding.

I met a homeless guy yesterday. I'm usually fairly cynical and jaded when it comes to homeless people, but I'm inclined to believe this guy was telling the truth. Mainly because he was in Henry county, and there are absolutely no bums in Henry county. It's not that we are all rich or anything, it's just that it's so far from the city. It'd be like finding a bum in farm country. It usually doesn't happen. He said he came to Georgia because his daughter died, and something happened to his truck - the city towed it? I didn't really understand that part. He has a home back in Kentucky, and he just wants to get back to it. I gave him my phone number and told him Christian City could probably help. Christian City is a community just next to Fayetteville. They do all kinds of homeless/charity work, so I figured if this guy really is legit and just wants to get back home, they could probably help him. He asked me to take him to church Sunday morning, but I told him I was going to be out of state. I'm just some innocent girl, and the idea of having a homeless guy in my car doesn't sound all that safe. Also, that would require that I go to church, and I'm not a Christian. I hope he calls me if he really needs some help though. I can find a way to get him to Christian City, even if it's just to pay a taxi to take him there. I really feel bad for him, and I want to do anything I can to help him. Maybe I'm just a fool, but I'd rather say I tried to help instead of just casting him off like the alcoholic bum everyone else is sure to think he is. If there's even a chance he's telling the truth, I don't want to turn my back on him. Everyone so far has told me I'm way too gullible. Maybe I am. sigh.

DryGrain [~freebeer@ca-ukiah1c-106.losaca.adelphia.net] has joined #freebsd FREE ALL VAGINAS FROM THE EVIL CUNT OF THE FLAPPING EAST AND ALL OF THE DISEASES OF THE NORTH!!!!!! FREE VAGINA EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<chris> I was reading freebsdgirl.com and noticed no mention of your super hot coworker chris, and his witty banter.

CHRIS IS HOT AND WITTY AND COOL AND SMART AND OWES ME $70.

bitch.

But I still look good in black. :)

[sektie]$ mail noc Subject: reverse dns request 69.56.159.109 -> smut.codersluts.net 69.56.203.112 -> freebsdgirl.com 69.56.203.113 -> daemonporn.com 69.56.203.114 -> codersluts.net 69.56.203.115 -> naked.freebsdgirl.com 69.56.203.116 -> camwhore.codersluts.net 69.56.203.117 -> sektie.com 69.56.203.118 -> lesbian.freebsdgirl.com 69.56.203.119 -> fjear.the.36DD.freebsdgirl.com

thanks!

Randi Harper
.
EOT

It is interesting to see sexual habits tied in with what OS someone uses I use novell... I wonder what that does to twist my mind.. i'm guessing you have problems that lead to using viagra. that's what comes to mind when i think of novell something that just won't die, despite it being far beyond its time.

From: cuddlescWP@gte.net Subject: 5T Just read my good bye letter please. 8Feg1 1Iox1 Date: October 4, 2003 8:20:56 AM EDT To: Tim <sektor@coders.net> Reply-To: cuddlescWP@gte.net

Jenn (and family), It's been 2 weeks since you left me and I finally found a way to get my revenge. I have decided to sell our home photos to a website specializing in huge cocks (like mine). You said the size of my penis was the only thing I had going for me so I figured I might make a few bucks off it. I sold them the pictures on Friday and by Monday they had gotten back to me saying they have put the pictures up. See for yourself. here is the free login & pass Now the whole world, including your asshole family that never treated me with any respect, can see you taking my cock in your cunt, ass and mouth. Maybe your father would like to see his daughter gagging when I cum in your mouth. I bet they would also like to see you play with that huge dildo that so often found its way in your pussy while I ripped your asshole wide. All they have to do is go here... here is the free login & pass The whole site is full of whores like yourself getting fucked by guys with huge cocks. I've offered them the Valentine Day video for the right price. I'm sure everyone would love to hear you beg for it. Or better yet, hear you scream in pain when you get it up your shitter. That always gave me a little bit of satisfaction.

Hope You Die Hoe, -Jay

So, you're all probably wondering what happened to the site. Um, well, I'm a dork.

I'm switching providers in a few days, and the migration is not going as smoothly as I'd hoped mainly because I timed things horribly. So this server is back on for now, and hopefully won't be going down for any significant amount of time when I do the actual transition. Just a matter of DNS crap from there on.

Anyways, I just got to work, so I'll be sure to post a rather long entry later detailing the interesting stuff that has gone down in the past few weeks. Trust me, it's worth waiting for. ;)